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You think you know me but I'm changing all the time.
Ni Hao . My name is Sandi and i think koreans are haawt. ;)
I'm 12 this year , birthday's on 10th April
Love me ? Hate me ? Your choice :>
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Some problems @ 12:52 AM
Hey there . Dont read this post if you dont want to , I honestly dont really care . Sorry, I just feel so .. ._. Im really sick of always being the nice guy . Always when ppl feel left out/alone/no friends/betrayed I try to comfort them (If they're not my enemies) but yet when I feel that way no one is there to comfort me . Why?I tried putting everyone in front of me but it just backfired on me . I really tried. HONESTLY. I know you're probably thinking " What the fuck is this girl talking about?So what if no one is there for her ? I dont really care?" . But its not like it just happened to me suddenly like BOMB I felt that way. Its been quite long already , Im just bottling up my feelings cause I dont want to trouble anyone . BUT I SERIOUSLY HAD IT . I kept trying to fit in with you guys and tell jokes u guys might laugh at . I know that im the one that spoiled you 3 friendship when I just like barged in . But I just wanted to find a genuine best friend . Sorry if I interrupted your friendship , I know that one of you( im not naming .Name is not starting with J) is feeling left out or smth . But , I .. I dont know . I feel left out too but I cant voice it out like you do . WHY?! I really dont know anymore . fuck all of this (i mean the problem not the people). -.- I just feel so .. -.- . I know I should only give and not receive but its so fucking hard! I keep trying but it never works . I dont know anymore , should I still stay with them or should I just stop interrupting their clique and friendship?